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suddenly i don't exist

by spirits: live from the attic

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1.
room full of people and sound goes silent reminiscent of a place ive been before im falling victim to spring and its spells lovesick and alone in my room writers make fortunes from guidebooks for hell im all out of tune and im blue I catch my new reflection for the first time my bandage covers my message not written in lead or ink traces of letters all over the floor from begging for help, wont be used anymore nights like this wondering when I can end ive lost all my value in living
2.
I almost wrecked when the city lights of fort worth caught my eye so in love you held my arm and stood against me when it got dark elevator eleventh floor and we kiss before you go now we don't talk and those days are gone and I miss who I thought you were you looked so happy to see me you looked so happy to see me the last day I sat on my floor reading the letter that you wrote you wrote "I love you to the moon and back" your father told you that's how big love is I felt so small when I saw someone else has your heart tears hit the letters and smeared the ink and that was all for you and me you looked so bothered to see me you looked so bothered to see me
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the blue skies of texas are temporary the leaves start to fall away from everything theres never any time for anything only the sound of those leaves under your feet as you walked away from me now youre sitting so close to someone else now youll wake up to the love of someone else now youll lose yourself in the eyes of someone else someone else someone else now youll stay up late wandering with someone else now youll wake up in love with someone else now youll lose me and find what you want in someone else someone else someone else
4.
I wait for my lighters kiss dont deserve what im longing for its the only thing that longs for me or will touch me anymore im pouring my room is lit im all alone alone you really fucked up now you really fucked up now alone wish I had taken it too far wish I had taken it too far somebody help me somebody help me
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gravity 04:30
pullin your trigger tying your rope waiting for gravity to push you off the road grow into the sun in the end is it nothing is it a beautiful ending find out soon jumping into the ocean glorifying addiction becoming a spirit and feeling the air inside of you are you pulling your trigger too soon is this smoking gun too much for you are its exit wounds worth the shells they leave behind
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drown 04:11
as memories fade and evaporate the souls in the attic take you in take you in as time crawls on we fall apart we close our eyes and we fall we fall ill pull you down no more heaven no last try nothing after this you fuckin die i put my trust in human life now my vision blends to white so now ill drown ill pull you down and ill go live
7.
i am floating so high above you i tapped your shoulder you thought i was the wind i took a dive off of a bridge in lake worth felt the water flowing into my ribs and i thought "this isn't perfect this wasn't worth it this wasn't seemless i wanna feel less than this" i couldn't feel less than this
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written and recorded in may & june of 2016

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released June 19, 2016

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